"This is boring, who would want to read this??"

That sentence has been echoing in my brain for the last three days. Slowly driving me crazy (Yup, that's me on the left). You see, I have committed to something big and my mind is desperately trying to help me get out of following through. Up until now the power of that thought would have been very successful in stopping me, however I am more interested in feeling unstoppable so I will continue in my endeavor. However; I may be getting ahead of myself, so let me start at the beginning.  


My friend Marian, is brilliant. She is funny (to the right), engaging, fearless, creative and every month she picks a subject for which to focus her "happiness project" and commits herself daily to sharing a picture of her process in creating her happiness. For several months she has shared a slice of her life. It is real and inspiring. I don't know if she truly understands the impact her project has had on the lives of those connected to her.

I must say; I have been riveted. The first project was waking every morning for the sunrise, capturing its dynamic beauty and sharing it through social media for all to enjoy with her. Next was writing post cards of love and appreciation and sending them to the people of influence in her life. I was lucky enough to be included in that project.

When I received her postcard, my heart burst, a true experience of bliss. She included my husband in her loving thoughts and endearing words. She wrote about our future, dreaming of the difference we will all make in the world. I was sold, we will do the things she dreamt AND what truly captivated me was the post script where she wrote, "Will you pay it forward and deliver your own #flyawaypostcard?"

Well Marian, here it is. My #101DaysOfAwakening is an adventure inspired by you and it is the best way I know how to share what matters most to me and truly pay it forward.

I will pay it forward by embarking on an adventure and sharing it with the world. This adventure will test what I am truly made of and what I truly believe. On this journey I commit to daily meditation, introspection and exploration of self with the purpose of awakening my creativity, inspiration and appreciation.

I intend to do this in real, simple terms by acknowledging, sharing and processing my fears, discovering and addressing my sub-conscious beliefs and breaking the habits I have built around those beliefs and fears. All while building a practice of meditation and appreciation to implement habits more in alignment with whats real about me.

So back to that thought. "This is boring, who wants to read this??"  My ego pleads, relentless and unwavering in its attempt to protect me from the anticipated embarrassment and shame I might feel when I publicly share what I love with others. As you will come to find out about me, I have spent a lot of time in my life believing thoughts like this and over the last five years I have experienced unbelievable transformation by challenging these thoughts.

Starting January 1, 2014 I will start my journey of #101DaysOfAwakening. Tomorrow I will share my plan and daily I will share my experience of challenging my thoughts to see whats possible. I hope you enjoy reading about my journey. I hope I have half the impact on someone that Marian had on me. And if you feel so inspired, I hope you pay it forward.